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07/05/06 - 7:20pm] |
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There once a boy and a girl
They met by fate
Over the course of a year and a half, they went from flirting, to crushing, to liking, to loving. They went from arguing to fighting to reconciling. Lots. And then they finally took a chance on that relationship
But the girl had emotional trust problems, like so many people, and ended up hurting the boy
So he broke up with her, and they both got their hearts broken
Only problem is...theyre perfect for each other
They met by fate. Their relationship is fate. They are fate
They love each other more than the other has any clue of
Theyre hurting more than either has any clue of
But neither are talking. And dont know this
Because he ran to a new messenger name. And shes waiting for him to decide what he wants
Shes been waiting nearly a week, and it hurts her more and more each minute
She feels alone, and is getting out of control. Alcohol, drugs, gambling (and not money...)
She feels guilty, and is getting out of control
She feels angry, and is getting out of control
And no one knows what hes feeling. Because like her, hes not exactly open about his feelings all the time
Theyre both perfect for each other
Theyre so different, but so alike
And they truly love the other
If they didnt, it wouldnt hurt them as much
Now...if only someone could convince the boy that shes worth fighting for a little more...even for just a friendship...they could end up seeing all of what I see
The end
(hopefully just for now though)
PS: Finally got an apartment. Moving into it this weekend
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06/07/06 - 8:07am] |
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Still no fuckin apartment.
Im gettin pissed.
I really dont wanna have to go into Fort Pierce.
I left behind the drug and gang scene years ago.
And thats all the FP is. The ghetto.
After I get an apartment, Im thinkin of goin to IRCC.
Ash wants to go in the fall. Shes plannin to get her GED and start courses there until she leaves in 2008.
I was thinkin maybe takin a Psychology course.
Ash, her bf, and a couple other people jokinly say Im like a therapist or something. Maybe I should be.
Dunno.
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05/17/06 - 2:35am] |
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People need to understand, Im not here to be liked.
I say what I want, whenever I want, and I dont give a fuck whether or not you like me for it.
Love me.
Hate me.
Envy me.
Whatever.
I. Dont. Care.
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05/14/06 - 12:39am] |
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Im expecting to hear a crash any minute now
Or the power to go out cause some moron hit the pole
That moron would be Ashley
Ricky let her take his precious car for a drive.....
Dumbest move ever
Her internet is on the fritz
Keeps kicking
So I keep having to reopen her messengers cause shes waiting for something from Lia
Its aggravating
Now that shes not here for easy amusement, Im fuckin bored
And I wanna kill Roddy
Arrogant son ova bitch
Hes supposedly the male me
**scoffs**
We shoulda gone to the Stuart Ale House tonight
She knows one of the bouncers
But nooooooooo
She has to have a party here
Were gonna havta quiet down though cause Dawns getting home soon
My apartment hunt is on hold until Monday
But Kathy sat me down and said I could stay here as long as needed
Shes the best....but I dont wanna impose, yaknow
Plus Ash is a restless sleeper....she kicked me pretty hard last night....though it coulda been on purpose....
Thats it
Peace out bitches
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05/12/06 - 8:12pm] |
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Theres no fucking apartments in this city!
Ive looked for a week now. Even got Ashs sisters real estate friend to try and help, but she cant find anything either.
WTF? Thats bullshit.
I NEED an apartment ASAP.
Ash is doing the dance thing with Jason. I wanted to go and watch, but she asked me to stay here and watch out for Kathy.
Theyre going to the zoo tomorrow as a mothers day thing. Ash asked if I wanted to come, but thats 5 hours, at least, in the sun. While I could use a tan, I dont like outide.
Shes actin awkward about the holiday around me, cause its the first time without my mom...not that we actually celebrated it when she was alive. My mom was drunk and or high/sedated most of the time.
Plus with the only brother around being Reeses, whos the flakiest of us all, we werent too enthusiastic about it.
So Ash should just relax. I think of Kathy more as my mom than the memory of my actual mom.
Ash should be home by 10. Just in time for Conviction. Shes gotten me into the cop shows...biatch. Point is...I might drag her out to a late movie or something. I wanna go see RV. Robin Williams is the shit.
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05/10/06 - 11:54am] |
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Ash and Jase are fightin again. **sing songs "Told ya so"**
Honestly, I pegged this from the beginning. No one can change. Especially Jase.
**shrugs** They still have to talk and shit, so it should be interesting seeing that. Hes comin over later to work on their dance shit for Friday.
I cannot find a fuckin apartment in this city. Its ridiculous. The only one I found was a shitbox. So...Ash is stuck with me for a little while longer. Im just thankful that Kathys lettin me crash here. Or Id be fucked. I dont wanna have to go back to my dad. I havent set foot in that house since after my moms funeral. I mostly lived here with Ash then too.
I tried offerin Kathy rent, but she absolutely refused. She said to put it towards savin for an apartment.
Yeah. I need an apartment soon. Then I can go find one of my old..."friends" and have some fun.
**sighs** Thats the only reason I miss Mark.
Erm...thats about it bitches.
Peace out.
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| Hola la chica and chicos |
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05/06/06 - 1:50am] |
Alright...so...this doesnt look spectacular yet, or anything, but thats cause Im waiting for Ash to get out of the bathroom/shower to help me spiff this up...after she fumes for a few minutes. I dont think shell like that I made a journal.
Ten bucks says shell try to impress apostrophes on me. Hah! That annoys her so bad. I love it.
Uhm...I suppose I should do a little intro thingie, but fuck it. All you need to know is that Im Stacy. I dont care if you like me. I dont care if you dont. I am who I am, and if thats not enough for you, buh bye.
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